My Story
When I was a young girl, I spent my time playing in the dirt, collecting bugs, singing & writing stories. Somewhere along the way, through the conditioning, trauma & painful experiences that imprinted my body, I lost that little girl. I created a story that it was unsafe to be in my body and unsafe to feel. I created a story that there wasn’t a place for my authentic self to exist in the world. I was put on a variety of pharmaceutical medications because according to the western world, there was something inherently wrong with me. I slowly became a slave to society and what I thought the world wanted from me, trying my best to adhere to the toxic patriarchal narratives that have made so many of us suffer - capitalism, consumerism, hustle culture, exploitation of the earth, this notion that we always need more and bigger and better.
The more I tried to conform, the more disconnected I felt from myself and the more I felt the need to escape. I coped for years with drugs & alcohol, eating disorders & toxic relationships. I coped by destroying my body because I had no connection with her. In 2017, at 24 years old, everything came to a head. I felt like merely a shell of a human being. I hit multiple rock bottoms and something deep inside of me was yearning for so much more.
I had reached my breaking point.
This is when I decided that something needed to shift and I took it upon myself to strip away everything that I was hiding behind to begin the journey of Homecoming. After almost 10 years of escaping with drugs & alcohol, I decided to get fully sober. Shortly thereafter, I quit my toxic job and made the choice to start from scratch to build a life that felt more in alignment. All of these vast shifts required me to look deep within in a way that I never had before. For the first time in my life I felt as if I was truly meeting myself - a grueling, terrifying, beautiful and blissful process of excavation and remembering.
Around this time is when I really began to dive into the world of spiritual development and natural healing. All of this work that I was doing helped me to write a new narrative for myself - a narrative that allowed me to embody the belief that I have the power to heal myself & that all of the medicine I need is already within. Practices like breathwork, meditation, yoga and somatic work held me deeply through all of the transformation that was happening. After years and years of years of turning outward for validation and love, I began to find solace within my own skin. I reconnected with that creative and free younger version of myself and embodied her yet again. A remembrance.
During the pandemic when everything slowed down, I was given the spaciousness to become a student again. Through my journey I have learned that the only way we can truly heal ourselves, is to meet ourselves.. is to come face to face with everything that we’ve been avoiding and repressing. Our bodies hold the codes of everything we have felt, lived & experienced since we came into this world (& even the experiences of our ancestors). If we don’t take the time to meet and process what we have been through, hold space for our emotions and embrace ourselves as full-spectrum beings, what is alive inside of us gets stored deep in our tissues and comes out in more destructive ways later on (dis-ease, depression, anxiety, addiction, etc.). Our external reality is a direct reflection of how well we have been tending to our internal reality. Because I have walked this path and found liberation, I have made it my life’s work to help people meet themselves in the most loving way possible. The medicine I share with the world is what helped me through my darkest moments.
